burn, the sound of the
ocean, my breathing
deep and measured,
bare footed on the
rug, eyes closed, hands
splayed on the arm rest.
The present day slipping
away like layers of skin
or photos from a leather
bound family album;
a human onion unpeeled
by the hands of a loving soul
my mentor my spiritual beacon.
Months and months of daily
exercises bring us to this
stage of understanding,
acceptance and what she calls
“emotional maturity” as she
draws me deeper down into
these murky waters of the self.
A total calmness pervades -
a calmness like I’ve never felt
and I am totally at ease, completely
trusting of this beautiful person
whose only goal is to save my soul
and unlock the box I’ve buried
deep life a coffin of bitter memories.
Back we go, far back, through
the early LA years, the late
years, reversing the coming of age
of adolescence, of childhood, of
everything, back beyond the beginning
breaking through walls I’ve never
been able to get around – or over
accelerating now, the sound of the ocean,
the feel of the rug still there but now
my mind is flying, stripped of ego.
I am free; skin, bones, hair and teeth
disengage as I become fluid and I am
the rain, I am a thousand drops of rain
seeking a black tarn on a remote mountain.
I am a homesteader squinting from his
porch across the barren planes of
I am a Elizabethan courtier in a dual
with a rival in love, I am a Captain
of a ship without a map chasing horizons
I am a Sultan of the
lavishly clothes in silk route fineries.
I am a catholic priest in the Avingon Papacy
I am a lowly horse-tender for the heroes
of the Byzantine Crusades, I am the first
I am Thorfin Ragnasson and I am coming
for your wives, your lives, your children
I am destructor of Chang’an, capital of the
Tang Dynasty, the man that you fear.
I am bearded author of a book they call
Beowulf, I am Islam’s most feared enforcer
I am smallpox carrier, I am Barbarian warrior
I am flood victim at the
my soul swept away on the tides of the
and I am especially Roman leader with curled
hair, strong nose, fierce reputation – Emperor Rose.